Thursday, December 6, 2012

Reflecting on 28

Today is my 28th birthday.  Honestly, I feel old, but I also feel the best I've felt in a long time.  I'm wonderfully busy.  I'm in a Ph. D. program.  I'm almost done with a Masters of Public Health program, and I'm losing weight.  Three years ago, I was unemployed, lost, and very unhappy.  The difference is incredible.  Yet, I still think about the past, my mistakes.  I don't know if I'll ever truly let them go even though I should.  I think about missed chances, and, then, I ponder if I'd even be where I am if those things had come to fruition. 

The next line of thought comes back to how much I've changed and how much I've improved.  The truth was I was trying to fix myself for so many years.  So many of my pursuits had been about me.  It's not selfish for a while.  I think someone has to focus on their happiness, or they will make others around them unhappy.  I've finally done that.  I've finally focused on my happiness, and the results are fantastic.  There is no real point to this post except to say that I'm becoming a different better person.  These words are for me, but I hope they can give hope to others in whatever way possible. 

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